“THE BIGGEST LOSER” CONQUERS HER BODY ISSUES

nitzan71
May 4, 2015
2 min read

Here is one girl’s first-person account of how she conquered her body issues and regained her confidence at ELEM’s “A Real Home” program.

“I just returned from a 6-mile run and a bicycle ride. Who would have ever believed that it was me? Look where I am today compared to where I’ve been. For me, the entire journey to the souls is not a question of weight or external beauty. This journey lead me to destroy the barriers and cope with what seemed to have protected me and held me back all of these years. It gave me the opportunity to disappear.

After a long period of time in this journey, I am beginning to discover myself. I am discovering places that until now I was unable to reach. I didn’t dare. I fought with my body, with my soul and with everything I had. How can a girl like me run? With such a body and so much weight? It took me time, but now I am beginning to believe in myself, believe in a body that can run and accomplish because of the amazing support and guidance from ELEM’s social workers at A Real Home.”

Even with support the journey isn’t easy. Everyone is jealous of you for your weight loss, but I am in entirely different place. I am discovering myself and it is difficult to get used to this new body, to try to embrace it, not hurt it any more, and to protect and nurture my body. I am searching for myself inside this body, my body, fighting to find the connection between the body and soul. Turning to external sources to hold on to when inside I feel week.

A Real Home is one of those sources where I have an amazing care caregiver, but for all that to happen I needed to make a choice, to choose and to have the desire to follow through. To choose to let the people help me! To choose to jump into hell despite the paralyzing fear. To choose to get better for myself! That is the hardest part. To understand that it can be different even without feeling it. To figure out how to accomplish my goals and how can I can really run this journey. To rise and fall and with bloody hands to climb the mountains, and get wounded to the core of my being and still ask for help, and still have the desire to be helped. Everyone can do it. Sometimes it is incomprehensible to think that I need the help, but yes, both you and I can do it.